20 something’s

There are so many things that come with turning 21. It's the legal drinking age. The age some people consider “the beginning of adulthood.” Conversely, some people say this age is where everything goes downhill. They say that as the responsibilities get bigger, so do the stressors of life. It seems like the common theme among my peers is that 21 is the last “fun” birthday. Everything after is just getting old & not enjoying your birthday as much.

When it hit me that I was turning 21, I had mixed feelings. A part of me was excited that I'd finally be able to go to a bar or the club and not worry about being turned away. This is the year of fun, right? But the other side of me was filled with anxiety. I felt anxious because I knew that I couldn't blame my irresponsibility on being young anymore. I can't get away with the habits I've gotten so comfortable with.

So the time comes when you have to unplug from your distractions & be introspective, I had to figure out what it is I really wanted out of year 21. When quarantine started, it was apparent that all this alone time would force me to reflect & evaluate my life in year 20. Although it was a great year, I still felt unfulfilled, like I was searching for a purpose.

I'm a very emotional person, I am the ultimate empath (shoutout to my Cancers). I feel things strongly & I feel for others deeply, but my biggest struggle has been finding a way to express all of that. How do I channel all this passion into something that will nourish me, rather than run me dry?

That's when I realized that I needed to create a safe space for myself to feel fully & express freely. Thus, ingxbire.com was born. ingxbire.com is more than a website, this is a sanctuary. A place where art meets ritual. My hope is that with this website, I am able to cultivate a community of healing through expression.

Ashe.